Monday, September 8, 2014

Lions and Tigers and Atheists, oh my!

Why so much Christian attention on Atheists? (And vice-verse?)
Can they hurt us?  (And vice-verse?)
Are 'we' supposed to 'convert them'?  (And vice-verse?)
Why are some Atheists so bratty towards Christians, sometimes? (And vice-verse?)

...Here are a few of my ideas on this sticky subject:

From my perspective, what we Think is secondary to who we ARE and the Action of God in our lives.
Some people think there is prolly a God, some don't. Some people think there has to be a God, some think there can't be a God. Some don't think God matters one way or another.

But how we think about God is our MIND talking to itself.
When thinking takes over, it is our BODY trying to be in charge and act in the world; trying to survive, trying to what we need through non-spiritual means, trying to win. 
If we are not soul conscious, if we are not in charge spiritually, who can blame our body for trying to get the job done, best it can!

It is we as spirit who experience God, not the flesh.

Many, many people experience spiritual reality, regardless of our beliefs about God.
We are all the same, after-all: children of God, spirit in flesh.

I believe
focusing on what people think about God is a distraction,
and this often causes more harm than good.

What matters is allowing ourselves to Stop Letting the FLESH RULE.
For almost all of us - Christian or not, WHATEVER we consciously believe - a crazy fecundity rules us.  Physical focus and operation rules us!
How about we Stop Believing, Acting, Identifying-with the flow of our own thoughts, feelings, survival instincts, sexual urges, stories, habits, compulsions, ego drives, control issues...
(I could go on and on ; )

How about instead, 
we learn more and more, deeper and deeper to
Listen to that still, small voice.
Ask God to give us Ears to Hear, Eyes to See.

And then follow the Living God,
as we hear the voice behind us saying: this is the Way, walk ye in it.

IF we actually DO This,
regardless of what we think about God,
God leads us
- and where we go is in God's hands. 
No Matter What We Think About God.

We do not have to force anything down our own or anyone else's throat. 
What they think is really none of our business, what we think is usually a distraction - none of this really matters very much!

Ok, but - What can we do?
We can be with God and BE filled with Love, Life, Light... and shine,
and we say yummm, and they say hmmmm??
That is what drew ME into fellowship - the Experience of Spirit - not a bunch of stupid ideas about God!
That is what spiritual things sound like to our flesh - stupid.

Did we not hear Jesus say to not throw pearls before swine?

Did we not hear Paul say only AFTER we present our bodies to God, we stop conforming to the world; THEN we are transformed, then our mind is renewed, then we can Know and BE the proof in the pudding:
Then we can BE in God's will - our beautiful opportunity, only when we are aligned with God.

If this is so - the cart must come after the horse, so:
WHY would we try to convince the flesh of anything?
WHY would we try to operate rationally with materialists?
WHY would we try to force others or ourselves into some mold, of our own fleshly design?

WHY would we expect anyone - including ourselves - to ever show the fruit of alignment with our Source
BEFORE aligning with our Source?

Because we have our head up our derriere.
It is vanity, a chasing after wind to fight rationally about spiritual things with an atheist (with anyone! with ourselves!)
When we do it, we are off track; often because we are taking their unique journey, personally.
We are making their thoughts about US, not about them and God.

And when we do this, we annoy people, at best.
At worst, we make enemies.

Let me be clear, when we let our own thoughts try to control others:
We hurt people.
We invalidate their expereince.
We try to take away the free-will God GAVE them.
WE Make Enemies.

It is very understandable that many who identify as Atheist feel resentful and put-upon by Christians. It is understandable that Atheists sometimes lash-out, push-back, become bratty.

They are operating through their brain, as almost all of us do, as our society has taught us to do.
And their brain tells them this God stuff is hooey - very understandably, BTW.

And then religious people try to argue with them rationally.
And honestly, to my ears, it is the religious people who sound crazy, because we pretend our points are rational - WHEN THEY ARE NOT RATIONAL.

God is Spirit, we must know God spiritually.

All right, so is there anything that we can we do?
How about we encourage ALL of us, every day, to taste and see the Lord is Good - yum.

How do we do this?
Well, we are monkey-see-monkey-do creatures.
How about we look to God and bask in the delicious delight of our Creator - the giver of all good gifts...

This puts the cart before the horse, for us.
Then maybe they can notice how we do it, and figure out their own horse!

How about we ask God to bring us into alignment with God, with God's Light and Love, with God's unique Way for us.
How about we ask God to hold us in embrace, as we behold and reflect the Glory of God.
How about we ask God to help us to stop looking at Them, and start looking to God.

IF atheists bug us, that is all about US!
Are they lighting up the doubt in our own space?
Is something they say making sense (which it often does, BTW) and that feels scary.

How about we let God be God.
Let God take care of God's PR.
Let God hold each and every Divine Child.
And we keep our eyes on our own page.

If something is bugging us, undermining Our experience of God, seeming to pull us away from God; lets's go to our own Source to work this out in us.
God is big enough to work it out with us.
God is big enough to work it out with them.

AMEN, Wendy

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Gendering God?

From my perspective:
God is Spirit, we can only know God as spirit, through our spiritual senses.
God, and the Reign (Kingdom) of God (Heaven) that Jesus incessantly spoke-of is all *spiritual* reality.

God - and all spiritual realty - is One.
All is One, containing all things created and not-created. 
All is Love, All is Joy, All is Peace - etc, all the fruit of the spirit, and Way more.

God is whole & complete and we as spirit live in this reality with God.
We spiritually live now and through all eternity in heavenly places, time & space are creations of this reality.

Meanwhile, we have the blessing as humans to play in bodies on this earth, our consciously shared reality. And we play the earth game, the game of opposites - primarily spirit & flesh;  from there comes black & while, good & bad, rich & poor... the 10,000 dichotomies, including the exciting game: male & female.
In this physical reality, from our flesh-perspective, ALL is not ONE, but 2 or many.

In bodies, we dance in and out of our spiritual consciousness of God, the Reign/Kingdom of God, and alignment with God and our Way in God - in and out.
We remember and forget who we are, children of Light, flesh containing the breath of God.
We open and do not open to our spiritual senses, where we communicate with God, and God communicates with us.
Many of us have almost pure physical perspective, shutting down or drowning out much of our soul experience.

SO, I don't believe God IS gendered.
God IS Spirit.
Gender, and all dichotomies in this earth game, our in-fleshed expereince are of the body.

God as spirit comes to live IN flesh, dwells among us, but God is not gendered.

We are living in a world of opposites and ensconced in gendered thought and experience.
We call God by both genders, and without gender in our language, as well as our metaphors/parables, to help make sense to our flesh/brains our spiritual expereince.

But metaphors are fingers pointing to the moon, they are not the moon.
Gendering God literally, makes no sense in the spiritual reality in which God IS.

to Life!

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Light in the Darkness

I am doing less posting here, and more at Light in the Darkness.
Please come check it out.

in Life, Wendy

Pope Poo-pooed by GOP for Being too Jesus-like

I was encouraged to read this morning:  Pope Poo-pooed by GOP for Being too Jesus-like.

Jesus was not popular with the power-brokers - religious, economic, political, even social and familial.
We have the gospels, which spell this out very clearly.
But, it is hard to remember and engage this reality, as we are steeped in our Christian-culture overlay, through which we live, read the gospels, experience God.

I am really grateful for Pope Francis for being Light in this world, and for helping to shed light on this disparity between the way of power and the way of God, so clearly.
As the essay concludes, and it may serve us to grok:
I suspect Pope Francis really doesn’t care if the U.S. Congress honors him this way.  Kind of like Jesus probably wasn’t hoping to be honored by Pilate.

Jesus was not run by the world, the flesh, the devil - rather he did what he saw the Father doing.
We are called to follow Jesus: to let-go of being run by the world, the flesh, the devil - rather to do what we see the Father doing.

And, of course, when we also do what we see the Father doing,
we also inevitably and quickly come up-against the domination systems of our world
- inside us, in our lives, and in our world.

In case we haven't noticed lately, domination systems do Not Mess Around.
Empires - in any arena (religious, economic, political, even social and familial) - do not become 'king of the mountain' through 'live and let live', they get there by utilizing 'the cross', early and often.

Empires of this world are playing the physically-focused game, and playing it to WIN.
Jesus was playing a completely different game, a spiritually-focused game, and playing it to WIN.
Jesus called this game, this focus, this spiritual-reality which he spoke of incessantly, the Reign of God (the Kingdom of Heaven).

Jesus was crystal-clear that we cannot play both games, we can not serve two Masters.
Jesus operated through the Reign of God, always - it was the secret to his spiritual success
and it cost him everything in this world: followers, friends, and eventually his life.

He called us to do nothing less.
For example:
25And great crowds went with him; and, turning round, he said to them, 26If any man come to me, and shall not hate his own father and mother, and wife, and children, and brothers, and sisters, yea, and his own life too, he cannot be my disciple; 27and whoever does not carry his cross and come after me cannot be my disciple.
 - Luke 14 (Jesus was hard-core, this whole chapter is an inspiration in living the spirit-focused life)

We have the gospels, which spell this out very clearly.
But, it is hard to remember and engage this reality, as we are steeped in our Christian-culture overlay, through which we live, read the gospels, expereince God.

We die daily.
The the world, the flesh, the devil have less and less hold on us
- inside us, in our lives, and in our world.

We live and move and have our being in God.
This becomes more and more our conscious reality, and we live as spirit in this world, in Glory.
Bringing more and more Light - inside us, in our lives, and in our world.

Amen, Wendy

Thursday, October 17, 2013

The Good News is we can Experience the Kingdom of God Now

I believe Jesus' main message, the Kingdom (Reign) of God (Heaven),
IS the Mystical expereince of Spiritual Reality Now,
some call this God-Consciousness.

An example, one of Many verses which I find relevant to this conversation:
Luke 8:1 – 21:

Jesus is speaking about our actual experience-Word of the Living God,
from the same Father with whom Jesus was in constant communion,
whose Light is experienced when we see Jesus.

Jesus gives a parable of how mystical experience comes to us,
and how most of us do not let this in or let this thrive in us.

But for those of us who do allow our expereince of God to grow: the fruit is Abundant!
And, the more we behold and reflect the Word/Light/Glory of the Lord, the more we receive.

Lastly, those who hear God and do God's will that we directly hear, like Jesus did,
we are Jesus Family (he is the first of many brethren)

This is my truth:
The Good News is we can Experience the Kingdom of God Now.
This IS our mystical experience,

Blessings, Wendy

And it came to pass thereafter,
that he was going through
every city and village,
preaching and proclaiming
good news of the reign of God…

And a great multitude
having gathered,
and those who from city and city
were coming unto him,
he spake by a simile:
'The sower went forth
to sow his seed,
and in his sowing
some indeed fell beside the way,
and it was trodden down,
and the fowls of the heaven
did devour it.
'And other fell upon the rock,
and having sprung up,
it did wither,
through not having moisture.
'And other fell amidst the thorns,
and the thorns
having sprung up with it,
did choke it.
'And other fell upon the good ground,
and having sprung up,
it made fruit an hundred fold.'
These things saying,
he was calling,
'He having ears to hear --
let him hear.'

And his disciples
were questioning him, saying,
'What may this simile be?'
And he said,
'To you it hath been given
to know the secrets
of the reign of God,
and to the rest in similes;
that seeing they may not see,
and hearing
they may not understand.
'And this is the simile:
The seed is the word of God,
and those beside the way
are those hearing,
then cometh the Devil,
and taketh up the word
from their heart,
lest having believed,
they may be saved.
'And those upon the rock:
They who, when they may hear,
with joy do receive the word,
and these have no root,
who for a time believe,
and in time of temptation fall away.
'And that which fell to the thorns:
These are they who have heard,
and going forth,
through anxieties, and riches,
and pleasures of life,
are choked,
and bear not to completion.
And that in the good ground:
These are they,
who in an upright and good heart,
having heard the word,
do retain it,
and bear fruit in continuance.

And no one having lighted a lamp
doth cover it with a vessel,
or under a couch doth put it;
but upon a lamp-stand
he doth put it,
that those coming in
may see the light,
for nothing is secret,
that shall not become manifest,
nor hid, that shall not be known,
and become manifest.
'See, therefore, how ye hear,
for whoever may have,
there shall be given to him,
and whoever may not have,
also what he seemeth to have,
shall be taken from him.'

And there came unto him
his mother and brethren,
and they were not able to get to him
because of the multitude,
and it was told him, saying,
'Thy mother and thy brethren
do stand without,
wishing to see thee;'
and he answering said unto them,
'My mother and my brethren!
they are those who the word of God
are hearing, and doing.'
- Luke 8:1 – 21 (YLT)

Why isn't everyone a Mystic?

So-called mystical experiences happen to all of us,
all the time;
regardless of our intellectual belief structures.

Some of us have ears to hear, and eyes to see...
we are open to feeling and knowing our direct spiritual experience.
Others of us have unknowingly closed the doors to our mystical senses. 
These doors can be re-opened, if we choose.

There are lots of reasons that we are blocked:
intellectual reasons, emotional reasons;
these can't get us to our spiritual expereince, but, they can block us!

There are lots of reasons we get and stay blocked:
choice because of trauma, invalidation, pain, fear...

The picture I like for this:
the sun is always shining;
sometimes it is night (our back is turned);
sometimes the clouds block the sun (our expereince of the Light is muffled, distorted, unclear). 
None of this is God's doing (none of this is the sun's fault).

I know this sounds like blaming those who don't have these experiences,
but this is just how it is, IMO.

There are pretty direct ways to spiritually say yes to God,
and when we say yes and stay with yes,
our direct spiritual expereince of the Living God changes. 

I have trained mystics for the last 8 years,
working with hundreds of folks,
and I see it happen over and over.

Most of us just don't spiritually practice being still,
and knowing the subtle whisper presence of God.

For most of us it takes courage, it takes willingness, and it takes tenacity...
And, It helps most people, especially at first, to be with a group, intentionally focused and open.

Basically, Everyone who can walk, can dance - to varying degrees.
Basically, Everyone who can talk, can sing - to varying degrees.
Basically, Everyone is spirit, a part of God, and it is our birthright to enjoy our unique mystical experience, our spiritual senses - to varying degrees.

Blessings on your unique path Home,

Monday, October 7, 2013

Is Jesus the Only Way?

Is Jesus the Only Way?
Yes and No.

I believe:
the WAY Jesus walked,
the WAY he was / IS / embodied God,
the WAY he showed us to spiritually live in a body in this world...

IS the WAY:
to expereince Christ-Consciousness,
to experience Living in the Kingdom (Reign of Heaven),
to expereince the Way of Light, in action in this world...
to BE Light / Truth / Love / Life in this world.

I am not talking about what he did on the physical.
I am talking about who he was being in the Light,
while he was walking around.

This inner alignment with Source,
this living IN the Kingdom (Reign) of Heaven (spiritual reality),
While here on earth (physical reality),
IS the WAY.

He showed us how to BE it.
Meanwhile, Others walk / shine / BE that way in the world, as well.
Everyone who shines the Light, they ALL help all of us
to BE in the Light, to Be Light, as well.

(This is regardless of our intellectual beliefs, our religious programming.
Intellectualizing and intellectual beliefs about God and the Way
are mostly a distraction from
Light / Truth / Love / Life / Experience of the Divine / Walking our Unique Path in God!)

So, I would say:
  • Spiritually, Yes!  Jesus IS (His Being-ness shows us, he embodied) the Only way that any of us can consciously enjoy the Abba experience of God, in this world.  And others show us this same Christ-Consciousness, Living in the Kingdom (Reign of Heaven), the Way of Light, in action in this world, as well.
  • Physically, No!  There are many who can help us on our unique path / way. There are as many useful ways up the mountain, as one can count (some more popular, easier, or more straightforward, than others ;)
I hope you are enjoying your unique path!

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Too Much Spirituality?

In response to the question:

Spirituality is a word so broad, that it seems to have no meaning; unless it is the being and practice of consciously connecting with and manifesting spirit.
"beholding and reflecting, as in a mirror, the glory of the Lord"
We already ARE spirit, we are already seated in Heavenly places with Christ -  there is no where to strive to or from. 
Our practice is only to encourage us, invite us, to allow this reality into our conscious expereince within and around us: to uncover Light/Love/Truth/Way/God in ourselves and in our world... to see and to be Light - to be filled with God within as well as invite God to Shine in our world.

We do this by focusing spiritually, not physically - and there cannot be too much spiritual focus:
Being spirit in my body and acting powerfully from that place is the practice and the Being.

Meanwhile, much of what people consider spirituality, is actually the body trying to understand, making efforts to shift and change to obtain some physical or allegedly spiritual result.

There is no end to our desire, physically; including the desire for 'spiritual' wisdom, power, results. 
THIS is where we are tempted to imbalance - with physical desire, even too much is never enough! 

Therefore, when my body is in charge of my spiritual expereince, practice and goals - I am 'tryin to get to heaven on the end of a kite'.

Most of us start in this physically-focused place in our spiritual walk. 
But, if we allow it, God moves us to a move spiritually-focused place, in which we live in more balance, freedom and love;  while we learn our lessons, create/heal, serve and enjoy our unique journey here on earth.

Blessings, Wendy

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Shifting Consciousness, Spiritually

When Problems/challenges arise,
it helps me to remember that God is SO Big,
even when my vision and resources feel So small, sometimes.

When I try to fix my life, or figure out who I should be, or what I have to do - I often stay stuck.
But, when I spiritually put on the Mind of Christ: spiritual perspective, Christ Consciousness;
Everything Shifts inside me and in my world, naturally, effortlessly.

When I Try to be Good, to Act Loving, to Perform as I believe Jesus would have:
I get off track - Because I am being physically focused, no matter how 'holy' my intention.
When I focus spiritually, bring my spiritual eyes back on Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith, everything changes in and for me.

I am Not speaking of focusing on the Jesus of Religion, of Christian Faith and Practice, of Ethics or the Bible.
I am Not relying on who I think Jesus was or what I think he did when he walked the earth...
I AM speaking rather of who Jesus is Now, as spirit:  always spiritually present with us, available to each of us now, in intimate relationship, in spiritual communion.

From this spiritual perspective, 
problems/challenges are an invitation
back to my spiritual center: alignment with God and my unique path.

My challenge is:
  • Really Allowing God's abundant, limitless blessings IN, and
  • Allowing my eyes to shift from:
    • flesh: my body, my needs, my shortfalls/brokenness and my myopia;
    • to spirit: living as Jesus, as God's Way, Truth, Love, Life, Light manifest in our world.

SO many of us Mean to do all this, Think about this, Sometimes feel this and sometimes don't.
We hunger for God; to experience God's Blessings, Fruit, Leading and Manifestation in our lives, and in our world.
And many of us struggle with HOW to do this.  

THIS is the focus of my ministry. Please see here for info.

This post was inspired as a followup response to someone who is struggling, after they responded to the previous post.


Monday, September 2, 2013

Conflict, Suffering, Change: The only way out is through... the Cross

My favorite Christian Minister, Dr Bruce Morgan, used to quote often:

The apparently unendurable conflict is proof of the rightness of your life.
A life without inner contradiction is either only half a life or else a life in the Beyond, which is destined only for angels.
- CG Jung Letter to Marie-Louise Von Franz

My experience has been:
When I keep coming before God with my questions, my unresolved yearnings, my pain...
Letting go of who I think I am in God, who I think God is, and where I think God has me to go and to do…

Then I allow a Break-through to a new Reality,
in which I experience my wholeness, empowerment and peace in God, again.

I have found, when things become untenable, there is something
- within me, to break,
- within my inertial trajectory,  to change.

When I am willing to die, and allow God to resurrect me,
miracles happen.
Until then, I suffer, suffer, suffer.

The conflict, and even the suffering, is a Gift from Life, from God.
It grabs me by the neck, and Forces me to Pay Attention, to Shift;
When I Never, Never, Never would have shifted/changed/let-go, otherwise.

I want to come to my unique wholeness / maturity in God.
I ALSO want to be comfortable in myself, accepted in the world, and flow with unconscious inertia in my life.

Painful conflict within myself, and in my outer expereince, is God's gift to me:
  • to help me choose, again and again,
  • to take the tough road, the unimaginable road,
  • to choose the road that leads me outside "the camp" and into the "heart of God".

Blessings on your unique journey in God
- wendy

Follow-up to this conversation here.


Sunday, September 1, 2013

Supporting Your Unique Spiritual Path

My ministry boils down to 2 things:
Inner Tools and Spiritual Companionship.

Inner Tools

I struggled for decades in my life, in my walk with God.
I savored spiritual expereince, feeling, guidance within... Sometimes.
Other-times, I felt spiritually obdurate, closed, un-moored, cast-out, in Darkness and pain.

I tried many different churches, fellowships, worship experiences, and meditation techniques -
nothing was right for me, nothing Worked consistently.
Where was the Rock on which to build my life, in practice not in theory?

I FINALLY allowed God to lead me to learn and practice Inner Tools
that have put my relationship with God on a strong, reliable foundation.

The promises of the bible, of Christianity, became real for me.
I wrote a blog explicating this experience a few years ago, called I have found what I'm looking for

I became so excited about the tools, my spiritual expereince and fruit, spiritual deepening and healing...
I learned, healed and developed spiritually, so I can empower groups and individuals intheir connection with God.
This was a very challenging process - and completely worth the journey!

Spiritual Companionship

When life gets intense for me, problems/challenges loom: it helps me to ask a buddy to meditate with me.
I know you can totally do it yourself, as I can - but it is harder
If you want to go before the Lord together;
allowing healing, blessing, filling, letting-go... while focused on Jesus; to help get out of a 'rut', ping me.

Blessings on your Unique Path!


Thursday, July 4, 2013

Patriotism as Idolatry

Man has always been able to desire to build a heaven. But it seems he has never been able to admit that he didn’t pull it off. So he keeps insisting that he did pull it off. And that is really what patriotism is all about. It is the insistence that what we have done is sacred. It is that transference of allegiance from what God did in creating the whole wide world to what we have done with (or to) a little sliver of it. Patriotism is immoral. Flying a national flag—any national flag—in a church house is a symbol of idolatry. Singing ‘God Bless America’ in a Christian service is blasphemy. Patriotism is immoral because it is a violation of the First Commandment. - Will D. Campbell

From my perspective,
the Kingdom (Reign) of God (Heaven) is within us.
And the the will of God for this world comes from Heaven, not from the world/flesh (politics, etc) - no matter how ideal they may seem, or have the alleged 'potential' to be.

Our Way, Truth, Light, Life is spiritual-focused (of the spirit, as Jesus embodied, and showed us to Be, implored us to Do)
not physical-focused (of the flesh), as we are thrown to be, trained by society to do.

Like Jesus:
when the Kingdom of God / spiritual-focus, is the ground of our being,
we come to spiritual maturity/manifesting who we really are: children of God.
We shift and the world shifts, as well.

For all creation, gazing eagerly as if with outstretched neck, is waiting and longing to see the manifestation of the sons of God.
So often we want to put the cart before the horse.
With so much potential and glory, unrealized;
we celebrate the little sliver we are able to pull ourselves out of the mud, 

making idols of our paltry creations.

Meanwhile, hope you all enjoy a beautiful day, and a fireworks night
: ) Wendy

Friday, June 28, 2013

The 'curse' becomes Blessing

Every 'curse' that affects me
is one to which I spiritually consent.

I have learned to be glad of these challenges,
because without them,
I would Never have gotten where I am,
or where i am going.

The 'curse' becomes Blessing
as it 'encourages' me back into alignment,
with myself, my path, my God.

May we all find our Way, Truth, Life,
in our own unique alignment,
as quickly and comfortably as possible.


Monday, June 3, 2013

All Manner of Things Shall be Well

On a forest road, off of Mountain Loop Highway:
my favorite Mountain area near Seattle,
a quick and easy connection to Momma Nature,

I got stuck in the snow, in my friend's RV.

I had been on this road, near its singular entrance, for 27 hours,
and had only seen one truck come and go.
I was now near the top of one of 3 branches of this road.

I tried many ways to release the RV from the snow:
wedging branches behind the tires
… repeat.

The snow was like a sno-cone,
packed down hard after much thawing, freezing,
so that my big-self on my little-feet barely sank-in.

Which was convenient for walking around,
not so convenient for getting the RV free.
I grumbled to myself: 'Darn this front-wheel-drive RV, with it's weight is over the back tires!'

After the RV was not immediately released,
I had offered a quick prayer, that I would shift out of this with ease,
and set restfully to work, without haste, without fear, without concern:

All will be well...
All is well.

This is just an adventure, of many adventures.

I met my friend David, about a dozen years ago, in Baja.
He loved to say at the time:
Adventures start when breakdowns occur.

Of course, he is right. 
And what a blessing to stand in that place.  A place of serendipity.
God breaks-through and breathes new direction into my well-laid plans.

It is a joy to have the luxury of time.

So that a breakdown has the time/space/energy to be a joy, a blessing;
not a time to hold my breath while I am knocked off-kilter.

Usually my life feels like there is never! enough! time/space/energy,
and of course that is tied directly to money.
Breakdowns usually seem to mean a cascade of frustrations and disappointments.

In my life, I think this is one of the most undermining cycles that I get caught in:
the lie that there is not enough time/space/energy/money.
and that the answer is to rush! to try! harder!

As if scurrying and effort actually get me anywhere...

It was Wednesday afternoon in late-May, the least traveled time of the week in a National Forest,
at a time of year unpopular for summer-activities, as well as waning interest in winter-activities.
It crossed my mind that another vehicle may not come way up here, until the weekend.

I had plenty of supplies, so my only real concern was the cold,
for the RV was resting on and surrounded by snow.
I knew I could handle the cold, with the resources I had... possibly even comfortably.

Or... I could walk the many miles down to the 'main' road,
although it would be near the edge of my endurance.

So, I went about, doing what I could do,
working/playing with snow and the RV:
in peace, in contentment, in play and in comfortable challenge.

And a half-hour after I got stuck,
long before I was out of schemes to disengage myself from this rut I got myself into,
up the road came a truck.

I was pleasantly surprised!
And as I walked up to the truck and the party unfolded before me,
I knew that God was taking amazing care of me.

This 4-wheel drive truck had a sweet man driving,
with his wife sitting beside,
with two dogs romping out of the back,
and next a babe-in-arms emerging out of the cab.

I knew I was ok.
Even if it had been 4 guys in the truck, drinking beer and toting rifles (a more likely option out here).
I knew I was ok.

But my body/thoughts/emotions were a lot happier with this rescue party
I now found frolicking around me.
A family who lived 50 miles away, and hadn't been up here in months...

The guy had a four wheel drive,
a heavy-duty web that easily hooked to our vehicles,
and he did all the work.

It took no time,
and when we were done,
he would take no money, or food, or anything I offered.

It was a joy though, to repay the debt,
when (you can't make this stuff up) they got stuck in the same snow I did,
and I was right there to pull them out. 

Ha. God is Good.

God is so good to me! and
I rest in the gentle arms of Momma Nature.
This is always true, but often I don't notice.

Jesus said: 'when your eye is single, your whole body also is full of light.'
One of the things I love about being out in Momma Nature:
life is so simple, uncomplicated, singular, of human-scale.

I sleep.  I eat.  I do nothing.
I read.  I write.  I play with quotes.
I hike.  I play in a creek.  I lay on stones in the sun.

I daydream.  I vision.  I meditate.
I play with Spirit.  I savor Momma Nature.
I just be, I am.

In day-to-day life, there are so many layers of challenge.

As we all do, I have so many piles of to-dos,
so many people/places/things to manage.
I am a good juggler and yet, life is intense.

I enjoy being in Momma Nature
where I can let that all stand aside:
challenges are straightforward, uncomplicated, solvable.

In this scenario,
a need for a bit more friction under the front wheels,
or a little help from a gracious stranger.

Less then an hour after getting stuck in the snow,
I was off on a hike up the road through which I couldn't drive.
With my snowshoes on my back.

Slipping snowshoes on and off, as needed;
I climbed the gorgeous, increasingly snow-packed road for an hour,
all the way to its amazing end.

Enjoying the view.
Savoring the challenge.
Knowing more deeply that God is with me.

Knowing All is Well…
All Manner of Things Shall be Well.

When have you known God was taking really sweet care of you?  How has that changed your life?


Saturday, April 20, 2013

God leads us into And out of church

My experience is:
God leads us into And out of church:
churches, structures, organizations, spiritual paths...

- to serve
and to be served

- to learn
and to teach

- to be nurtured
and to nurture

- to confront
and the be confronted

- to heal
and to be healed

- to be empowered and validated
and to empower and validate others

- to open to God
to be opened to God...

What matters is that we be free in God, to be ourselves
and allow God to keep us free to follow our path in God
on and off the well-traveled, accepted ways...

I find that It helps to have friends in God,
Especially when called outside the organized church.

'Picking up the cross' always ends up looking so unexpected, unacceptable... I find...
I know with my life how weird and painful that can be - and how much fruit there is!

You know this too!
But i find it helps to mirror this for each other.
We remind each other that the cost of following Jesus is TOTALLY worth it!

The Death of all we are, and all we thought we would ever be - over and over and over -
Always ends in Sublime Resurrection.

So let's Hold On through the dark, and through the light.
Follow no matter what, no matter where.

Jesus leads us.
This is what being a disciple of Christ IS.

in life, wendy

Monday, April 8, 2013

Show me God!

Question: If God is real, why won't God prove it?

My Answer: This perspective helps me make sense of God's seeming hiding:

"God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth."

God is Spirit.

We can see, feel, hear, taste, touch, know PHYSICALLY - we can reason and we can apply the scientific method, but we will never find God physically - with our physical senses, minds, reason, emotions - because God is Spirit.

We can see, feel, hear, taste, touch, know SPIRITUALLY - we can open to our spiritual information, expereince, gifts and fruit. It is HERE that we find God, spiritually.  We also find who we Really are and what we are called to be and do, spiritually.  We find everything we need to be free, whole and grow into our maturity in God, spiritually.  We can live in the Kingdom of God NOW, spiritually.

We can't do ANY of this physically.  God is Real, and our life in God is Real - but none of this is consciously available to those who refuse to look beyond the physical, into our direct, unique spiritual expereince.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

The Bible: an out-dated pile of contradictions?

Some say the bible is just an out-dated pile of contradictions,
from which people pick and choose their beliefs.
I think they are right
... but this is not the Whole story.

From my perspective:
The bible is not the Way.
Knowing Jesus is the Way.
Listening to the Holy Spirit is the Way.
Following our Unique Soul Path in God is the Way.

I believe the whole bible points to doing this:
having our own, real, present-time relationship with the Living God.

I believe Jesus in the bible points to doing this as central to our lives, as his followers:
living in the Kingdom of God (in the Reign of God).

From my expereince:
When we are operating spiritually, in the Reign of God,
the bible makes incredible sense, and
the paradoxes are tripping points, signposts to Truth: don't miss this!

When we are IN Christ,
the bible is beautiful encouragement to be who we are in Christ, to listen to him, to know him, to follow him, to do what he did in the world;
in our own unique way, in present time, spiritually.

From my expereince:
When we are focused and operating physically (in the flesh) -
the bible is a pile of contradictions.

How do we decide
which way to go?
which directive to follow?
what to believe?

When operating IN and through the flesh,
we are experiencing the bible through emotions, intellect, ego, habits, reactions, programming, tradition, borrowed truth, dogma...
our perception of God's Way, Truth, Life and Word for us
is colored by 'the world, the flesh, and the devil' (as they used to say more conservative circles : )
and we pick and choose what we like, from there, from our physical perspective.

Many utilize the bible as a tool for self-justification of already present perspectives, beliefs, alliances. 
And, really, what else can we possibly do if we only have physical perspective?!

From my perspective:
Those who see the bible as contradictory and way out of present-time experiences from the Past
... are absolutely right... from a physical perspective.

And those who see the bible as an
Invitation to Life Abundantly in Delicious Relationship with God,
Support for the Way of following Christ, and
Validation of the fruit of this unparalleled sacred expereince
... are absolutely right... from a spiritual perspective.

Thanks for reading my perspective.
May we all live in Peace,

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Fixing our eyes on Jesus, not on our sin

let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith  - Hebrews 12

I am not worried about your sin, or my sin, or anyone else's sin... and I don't believe God is either.

My expereince in my ministry is, folks do their spiritual work: actively deepening in God and letting God heal them...  and they start dropping sin/addictions like crazy:  sugar, cigarettes, alcohol, drugs, sex, caffeine... One day, they just show up and say: "I don't need, want or enjoy this anymore," Then we work with the energy and 'demons' associated with the issue, and they drop it and they are free.  I watch this happen over and over.

It isn't about working with me, I am just blessed to watch.
It is about fixing "our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith."
It is about allowing God to Fill us with Blessings and Grace and Mercy and Fruit, 
and allowing God to wash away So Much Pain and Fear and Striving and Doubt and Lies.

From my perspective, a focus on SIN is a stumbling block, there are many wisdom warnings about this:
What we resist, persists.
What we run from, pursues us.
What we focus on, we become.
What we give our attention to, grows.

My favorite Christian minister, who helped pulled me through years of challenges with his teachings, Dr Bruce Morgan; used to say:
"enjoy your sin as long as you can, because it will fall away before you know it" 
something like that... I thought he was quoting someone like Luther, but I can't find it - I found this quote instead, and with this I will close:

Be a sinner and sin boldly,  but believe and rejoice in Christ even more boldly, for he is victorious over sin, death, and the world. As long as we are here [in this world]  we have to sin. This life is not the dwelling place of righteousness,  but, as Peter says,  we look for new heavens and a new earth in which righteousness dwells. It is enough that by the riches of God’s glory we have come to know the Lamb that takes away the sin of the world.  No sin will separate us from the Lamb, even though we commit fornication and murder a thousand times a day. Do you think that the purchase price that was paid for the redemption of our sins by so great a Lamb is too small? Pray boldly—you too are a mighty sinner.  - Martin Luther

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Out of the Box: GOD alone!

Face to face on the mountain from the midst of the fire Jehovah spoke with you (I stood between Jehovah and you at that time, to declare to you the word of Jehovah; for ye were afraid by reason of the fire, and went not up to the mountain)
- Deuteronomy 5: 4-5 (precursor to the "10 commandments")

This 'trick' of getting a mediator between ourselves and God is a very Old Game.

We are not alone in avoiding God, in wanting someone else to stand between us and God.  The FIRE is HOT.  Going 'up' the mountain can be treacherous!

It is a common mis-step, from my perspective, but it is lethal to our spiritual growth. We must allow ourselves and others to risk relying upon the living God.

It is important to know the bible – some of God’s interactions and revelations to God’s servants are very instructive to us!  But I believe that the bible points us to God, and the so-called word of God (the bible) is not the *Word of God*... The Word of God is the Living God speaking to us directly here and now.

The bible is not the Word of God. I did a bible study on all the instances of Word of God in the New Testament (rather easy in the computer age) and I became convinced this is true. Go ahead and do it yourself. Notice what you read in context, and keep in mind the only 'bible' they had at the time, Christians now call the Old Testament.

I believe modern Christianity has made an idol of a book, and this trips us in our deepening in God. Instead of SPIRITUALLY looking unto God, instead of fixing our  spiritual "eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith” we are told to PHYSICALLY use our intellect to read a paradoxical book.  From my experience this Does Not Work if we want to be disciples of Christ, only if we want to be disciples of Christianity.

The BOOK tells us to go to God - if we want to listen to the book, how about we GO TO GOD?

Does Satan, and the world, and the flesh try to snare us? Absolutely.  But the bottom line, IMO/E is that Jesus says “my sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me” and I believe him! Absolutely.

Do we have to grow up into this knowing, be trained by God? Absolutely.  Is this learning and growing obligatory in the Christian life? Absolutely.  Any individual who does not do this ends up as a big fat sheep, a Christian who lives an entire life and never leaves Kindergarten.

Churches of almost every stripe exacerbate our laziness and rebellion by telling us we don’t have to go to the living God, that there is some other way. But there IS NO OTHER WAY to be a disciple of Christ, to live the unique journey that is our call.

SO many say the way to know God is to read the bible. That occurs as dung. The bible is not God.  If we want to know God, we need to be still, and know God.

The bible is not God.  We are not called to a relationship with the bible. We are called to a relationship with the living God!  There is no other way to grow up in God than to go TO GOD and let God grow us up. No Other Way.

I believe Protestants went awry when they separated from Catholicism.  And the Catholic church went awry right near the start.  The Catholic church likes to say it is is/was built on scripture and tradition.  Protestants said – No – scripture alone.

I say they are all missing the mark! It is God Alone.  God Alone!  God alone can not only save us, but also keep us.

The bible is a tool God uses in our journey deeper into God. The bible is a tool God can use in many ways in our growing up in God. But it is only a tool and it doesn’t matter. In the end it is only a book and it is dangerous to allow it to become an idol!

Modern Christianity is so off the mark on this, IMO, that it is hard to even communicate about it, because it is so far from our programming about what Christianity IS.

May God teach us to look to God Alone.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Choose Life!

See, I have set before you today life and prosperity, and death and adversity; in that I command you today to love the LORD your God, to walk in His ways ... I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse. So choose life in order that you may live, you and your descendants, by loving the LORD your God, by obeying His voice, and by holding fast to Him; for this is your life and the length of your days

Two points I would like to make about this amazing finale of Deuteronomy 30:

Application of the wonderful Gift of our Free Will is the most important aspect of our life and creativity in our bodies and our lives. My teacher often said something like this, and I am just starting to grok how wise were her words:
  • Just Choose!
  • You can't do it wrong.
  • If you don't like the result: Choose Again, and keep choosing.
  • Movement IS Healing: GO!

We are spirit(souls), a part of God. If we identify with the flesh we are 'lost at sea' in this world. When we identify with our Oneness with God, in God... our life, and our world, is transformed.

We are spirit and we have spiritual senses and abilities that go WAY beyond our physical senses and abilities. This is foundational to every word in the bible and a key to understanding what God is saying to us over and over and over.

In the case of the quote above: GOD is Speaking, and saying the way of LIFE is to:
  • Be in Loving Relationship with God
  • Walk in God's Paths
  • Listen to God's voice
  • Cling to God.
We CANNOT do this as flesh, we cannot do it with physical-focus; that has no meaning. Consider it: one cannot live with God, walk with God, Listen to God, Cling to God as a BODY: the body can only pretend these things, desire these things, think about these things, have feelings about these things, doubt these things... and follow rules and structures and teachings, as a child is trained to do.

This is not a spiritual life! This is not the beautiful message of the prophets and mystics through the ages. This is not the Good News that inspired spiritual evolution and revolution in Jesus day... Rather, we must do these things as spirit, with a spiritual-focus!  As Jesus said:
God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.

Let us ask God to open our eyes more and more to read scripture from a spiritual point of view and it will become more and more Life-bringing to us. Geometrically more importantly, let us ask God to open our eyes more and more to hear God's voice directly and respond. This is what we are asked to do, let us do it!  as David and Paul said:
Today if ye will hear his voice, harden not your hearts

This is all said to frame the quote below. I will refrain from commenting on it, she uses different words and concepts than I would, but I believe contemplating her quote can greatly serve Life:

:: Melanie's Wisdom ::

* Every time we rely on someone or something outside of us to provide us with love, success or happiness, we hand our power over. As soon as they don’t provide it we are defeated. Ironically, when we decide to be love, success and happiness, we easily attract the people, events and objects that supplement this state.

* Ninety percent of our life is created for Emotional Belief Systems, not logic reasoning. This explains why past trauma, pain and fear creates powerful ‘less than’ belief systems that have wedged like crossbows.

* Needing is a state of the ego – that tries to convince us that we are empty and
we need something to feel love, success and happiness. Our true self requires nothing
to feel complete. From a state of being complete we create more to complete us.

You have always been deciding the truth of your life. It is how you decide to feel about it. There is no need to try to work out what something means. You decide what it means.
- Melanie Tonia Evans

Sunday, June 24, 2012

I myself am the enemy who must be loved

In actual life it requires the greatest art to be simple, and so acceptance of oneself is the essence of the moral problem and the acid test of one's whole outlook on life. That I feed the beggar, that I forgive an insult, that I love my enemy in the name of Christ - all these are undoubtedly great virtues. What I do unto the least of my brethren, that I do unto Christ. But what if I should discover that the least among them all, the poorest of all beggars, the most impudent of all offenders, yea the very fiend himself - that these are within me, and that I myself stand in need of my own kindness, that I myself am the enemy who must be loved - what then? Then, as a rule, the whole truth of Christianity is reversed: there is no more talk of love and long-suffering; we say to the brother within us, ‘Raca,’ and condemn and rage against ourselves. We hide him from the world; we deny ever having met this least among the lowly in ourselves, and had it been God himself who drew near to us in this despicable form, we should have denied him a thousand times before a single cock had crowed.
- C.G. Jung, CW 11, Psychology and Religion: West and East, Chapter V, "Psychotherapy or the Clergy," § 519-520

Tuesday, June 12, 2012


Often, when I see the title of this blog,
I sing this old song to myself,
which I used to utilize in my personal worship a lot in my late teens:


From mountains high, cool waters flow,
The singing breeze, green meadows grow;
Shine tall pine trees, blue sky above,
Are all expressions of my Lord’s love.

And this one God who made all these,
Is interested in you and me;
His greatest gift is to make us free,
New self, more life, abundantly.

God speaks, He acts, what He says He will,
His promises He will fulfill,
Through Christ His focused love appears,
To put at ease the life that fears.

Relationships to all He brings,
The solid feel inside me rings;
No phoney do I have to be,
For God, through Christ, accepts just me.

The dawning sun, a bright new light,
For folks to join, no need to fight;
Creation through variety
Displays God’s plan for unity.

And this one God who made all these,
Is interested in you and me;
His greatest gift is to make us free,
New self, more life, abundantly.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Law of the Spirit, Life, Grace

It is my understanding that one of the major conflicts within early Christianity, was the question of what to do regarding Judaism and the Law, basically:
- Do Gentiles have to become Jews?
- Do Christians have to follow the Law?

Some said Yes. Some said No.
When push came to shove, folks seemed to generally align in 2 camps:

Live Jewish and keep the Law as a prerequisite to being Christian
Live according to the leading of Spirit in the Freedom of Christ - whether previously Jewish or not.

The watershed for this choice was seen starkly around circumcision:
- if you were non-Jewish, did you get circumcised?
- if you were Jewish, did you encourage non-Jewish believers to get circumcised?

Under pressure to deal with this issue, the (Jewish) Christian leaders realized that folks didn't have to become Jewish to follow Jesus, but they felt the need to add a few caveats for acceptable behavior from non-Jews, a compromise, if you will:
abstain from food polluted by idols,
from sexual immorality,
from the meat of strangled animals
and from blood

To see read this story for yourself, see Acts 15.

I don't know how much these decision-maker(s) were in the will of God to choose this path, or not. It seems to me this ruling was made from CONCEPTS/pictures/hooks of the most onerous, unacceptable and un-Jewish behavior; these became the guidelines for non-Jews... But whatever, that is what was decided.

Notice, these are the only rules the Jewish leadership asked the non-Jewish Christians to follow. This is important to note, IMO, in the context of modern Christianity:
  • not all the Law,
  • not the 10 commandments,
  • just 4 rules...

BUT as experience clearly shows, from that day til this, there continues to be struggle within Christianity on this point: the Law. Most folks take some kind of middle ground... which i find sad.

Paul was a Major advocate for Freedom, Grace, Living by Spirit, not by Law; for ALL being welcome to live in Christ, not just Jewish people. I really appreciate the place that Paul evolved to about this question. A LOT of what he wrote touches on this issue, because his ministry was TO the non-Jews... that would be almost all Christians at this point in time!

When I was finally brought to an understanding of this, back in college, my reading of the NT letters, changed. It all made a lot more sense to me. For those not aware of this information, perhaps this distinction will be useful for you as well.

For example, the entire book of Galatians revolves on this issue.

And it contains one of my favorite verses in the bible:
Paul invests almost the whole book saying WHY we are free from the Law, to live by Spirit of Life, in Grace, and then says in chapter 5:1:
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.
Stand firm, then,
and do not let yourselves be burdened again
by a yoke of slavery.

From my perspective, and Paul makes clear - we have to CHOOSE:
live by LAW or live by SPIRIT;
as children or as mature, spiritual adults;
as slaves or as heirs...

Meanwhile, we CAN NOT live by the Law, Jesus made sure of it - that we had to be clear it is IMPOSSIBLE to do: letting us know it wasn't just about the outside, but also our inner experience.
Humanly, by the flesh/body living by the Law is ridiculously impossible!

On this point, I highly recommend the hilarious and insightful book by AJ Jacobs on this subject: 'The Year of Living Biblically' is about his quest to live the ultimate biblical life, to live under the Law. To follow every single rule in the Bible – as literally as possible.

So, we Must live by the Spirit...
BUT, from the flesh, from our physical point of view, we CAN NOT live by Spirit. It makes no sense to our intellect or our everyday experience, and it doesn't WORK to TRY or theorize about living as Spirit. Most Christians don't even have a useful concept about what living by Spirit MEANS.

TRYING from a physical perspective, to live a spiritual life, to live as as Christ lived, has been proven for at least 2,000 to not work.
I believe Chopra covers this untenable situation well in 'The Third Jesus', where he focuses on Jesus as the cosmic Christ who speaks to us who want to find God as a personal experience, to attain what some might call Grace, or God-consciousness.

SO, it is my strong opinion:
from a body-focused / flesh / intellectual perspective we cannot live by Law
... AND we cannot live by Grace.
What is to be done, then, to live as a disciple of Christ???

The church has tried to solve this paradox by pretending it doesn't exist.
Christianity has invested the last 2,000 years in trying to find some middle ground, to live by Law AND Grace, to live by Flesh AND Spirit.

From my perspective this is a ridiculous and offensive undermining of Jesus mighty gifts to us.
This makes for a toothless spirituality, a domesticated Christianity, a relationship to/with Jesus that is shackled by earthbound concepts and mundane limitations.

Do I feel strongly about this? You BET!  Because there is a spiritual LIFE beyond the necrophilia that is preached as Christianity every Sunday.

Jesus had little patience with folks who pointed always to the flesh and not to Spirit! Jesus was all about the Kingdom of God, not the ways of people, religion, physical-focus; in the bible this often seen in Jesus interaction with the Pharisees.

If you want to see focus on the Law differently than
we have been programmed about, falsely;
and let go of 'Jesus meek and mild'
that we have been taught in Sunday school, I suggest doing a study on Jesus' relationship with the pharisees.  Here is one source: I recommend skipping all the commentary and going 2/3 down the page to the listed verses.

Jesus' answer to this paradox of Law and Spirit was very different from ours.
HE constantly pointed to living as spirit, in spiritual reality: the Kingdom (Reign) of God/Heaven.

Jesus did not trip on the flesh, he did not trip on the LAW:
he operated Spiritually and exhorted us to do the same!

Jesus incessant focus, his core message was The KINGDOM: the Kingdom of Heaven, the Kingdom of God.

I believe the use of this translation ‘Kingdom’ diverts us from the truth with which Jesus was so committed to enlightening us.
I believe Young’s Literal Translation gives a much better picture for us about what he is pointing to. Let me give an example:

For Luke 17:20-21, the King James version, and most other translations, say something like this:
And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation: Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.

But look how Young's Literal Translation translates the same verse:
And having been questioned by the Pharisees, when the reign of God doth come, he answered them, and said, 'The reign of God doth not come with observation; nor shall they say, Lo, here; or lo, there; for lo, the reign of God is within you.'

It is difficult to speak about the Kingdom/Reign of God - it is all too easy to be misunderstood.  Many believe we are ALREADY on the path of Life; but for most of us, the FRUIT seems to say otherwise.

The WAY of the Kingdom/Reign of God, as Jesus lived and taught, goes through a Death of the body, the flesh and physical-focus; and Awakening to True, Abundant Life and spiritual focus. The FRUIT of this process is very clear, in the fruit we see: are we living the life of Christ in us?

Jesus invested most of his ministry as 'a finger pointing at the moon' on this subject of the Reign of Heaven, by utilizing parables.  At the same time, he actually taught his disciples spiritually, to LIVE in the Reign of God: and they taught others, and the world caught on FIRE.  But mostly we are left with the archeological remains of this fire, dry bones of The Way of Christ, with no LIFE in them.

Fortunately there are some with a spiritual perspective, and the Spirit of God is, of course, unstoppable.  I have been blessed to find a path that serves me in this process and I have experienced this process serving many others.  I pray that each of us does not STOP, until we each find our unique pathway to LIVING the Abundant Life that God has promised us; a life of ripening and spiritual fruition.

May we each leverage the Freedom that Jesus provides us, to live in Spirit an Abundantly Fruitful Life.
Amen, Wendy

PS If you would like some of my perspective about what an Abundant Life IS, What is Possible in the Christian Life, see here.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

the Healing Power of non-Judgment

Someone posted on a Christian Seer & Healer Site:
"Celestial justice". Anyone out there believe that if someone is nasty to others all of the time that after a while, the universe will drop something nasty on their heads and will keep doing so until they learn their lesson?

I responded:
I think the general rule is: we reap what we sow.
Fortunately Mercy and Grace mitigate some of that, or most all of us would be in pretty sorry shape.

'Ye heard that it was said: Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and shalt hate thine enemy; but I -- I say to you, Love your enemies, bless those cursing you, do good to those hating you, and pray for those accusing you falsely, and persecuting you, that ye may be sons of your Father in the heavens, because His sun He doth cause to rise on evil and good, and He doth send rain on righteous and unrighteous.
- Jesus in Matthew 5:43-45

Since we all have evil within us, and we all act un-righteously, it occurs to me as fortunate that God gives us all what we need, even when we are unjust and seemingly undeserving.


My experience in general, and what I have noticed on a spiritual level:

1) people who do terrible things on the outside are usually pretty messed-up on the inside Already, and when people do bad stuff, it just makes things worse on the inside.

2) the best thing i can do for the mean-people is love and care-for them as best i can - and if there is any possibility, assist them to open to healing and Light.

3) the more i am tempted to stand in judgment, the more I point my finger outside at others - the more I am led back to look into Myself about the issues I am judging so harshly. (as the saying goes, whenever I am pointing my finger out, there are always 3 fingers pointing back at me... gotta hate that! : )

Am I secretly like Them in some way, in some way that is currently unconscious to me? DO I want to be like them in some way, but I don't let myself?
Or is there something about their 'wrongdoing' that I am unhealed about - so I am hypersensitive? Someone hurt me in a similar way in the past, and now I want them ALL to PAY?

When I am hooked on Their sins, Their not-doing-it-right, there is Always something for ME to allow to be healed and made whole. Otherwise, I would, as Jesus does, love them and heal them if they can have it, and invite them to go and sin no more- i.e. open to living in more alignment with God.

4) I am not saying this is always easy or natural or the default response. But, in all these things, it is becoming easier and easier for me to stand in compassion for others (and myself) because the more I heal, the more I let God fill me with Light, the more I face and own my OWN Shadow...
the more I find all the evil that I happily believe is Out There;
I find the evil In Here... in my own space.

And the more I allow God to shine Light and Mercy and Grace into my Own Shadow, the more I Let Go and Let God about even this DARKNESS within ME -
I become more peaceful with the evil and shortcomings Out There,
and miraculously the evil and shortcomings Out There have More ROOM (they are invited to change) and Sometimes they DO shift!

Bottom line:
there is Real Power in Compassion;
and when I face my self, open to the Light and allow God to Heal me, I am also opening up an invitation, a healing-space for those around me to Heal and to Open to the Light!


The essence of my ministry is to assist us to allow God to open our spiritual ears, and spiritual eyes - to communicate with and know God, directly - to be Seers.  I am called as a Healer, it is the essence of my path, and I believe we are all called to be healers on some level. 

I believe it is essential, absolutely fundamental, as Christians, as those with Soul-Senses, and as Healers:

1) for us to allow healing for ourselves, if we want to be a healing influence in the world; we must allow ourselves to operate from a spiritual perspective, rather than a physically-focused perspective: particularly allowing ourselves to be healed of judgment and seriousness.

2) because, the more we See (hear, know, etc) spiritually - the more there is for us to get Hooked on - there is a LOT of challenging crap happening in the world. It is detrimental to US to be viewing it all from a physical perspective, which is the perspective of judgment.

3) AND it is hard enough for someone to come to us for assistance and healing, believing that we See their shortcomings and secret sins, etc. People Already live in SO Much Self-Judgment and Invalidation - it is crushing for them, for all of us!

If I cannot see and relate to people (more and more over time) from a spiritual perspective, without judging and resisting them and having my Own agenda for their improvement, then I am offering them anti-healing: I am not serving them and I am not serving God.

Again: I believe if I am judging them, I am doing the opposite of serving them and serving God.

These are some of my perspectives and experiences around judgment, all of which I feel very strongly about. YMMV.

Thank you for the conversation.
best, wendy

Saturday, September 17, 2011

The curse and blessing of Perfection

ye shall therefore be perfect,
as your Father who is in the heavens is perfect.
- Jesus in Matthew's Sermon on the Mount, Chapter 5:48

I used to be dominated by the pressure to be perfect - i.e. to be very different, BETTER! than I was/am and different than I ever could realistically be.

In various layers of my being, consciously and not-consciously, I used to think that I had to be perfect to be loved, to be acceptable, to deserve the earth under my feet and the sun and rain on my face.
I have been allowing God to shift this for many years now, layer after layer, thought after habit after emotional default after energetic attachment... shifting and allowing light and lightness. It is a blessing to allow healing and change at the deep layers.

It gave me a lever to help me free myself, when my spiritual teacher told me that there is NO perfection in this world, on the PHYSICAL it is an unobtainable ideal, so it would serve me to let it go.

At the same time. it helped me to see and expereince over and over, from a SPIRITUAL perspective, that Everything and Everyone really is perfect: right now; always have been, always will be. Everything is ALL Right. As Julian of Norwich said: 'All shall be well, and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well.' That is the spiritual reality which I expereince, when I tune into my mystical senses.

It also helps me to notice what I think perfect is.

Is it a rigid picture of how someone or something should be, an IDEAL? This doesn't work for me, I never live up to my own or other's idealized pictures of who I should be, what I should look like, and what I should do. And nothing in this world lives up to my idealized pictures either. This is a painful way to live, and it doesn't work for me.

Fortunately my spiritual practice has very useful distinctions and practices around these 'perfect pictures' that so often drive us - so I am grateful to be in the process of allowing God to melt them away, as well as the mechanisms behind them, from deep in my psyche.

Another way to look at perfect, which I find enlivening:
The Greek word that is often translated as perfect (as in the quote above), means "having reached its end, full-grown, complete in all its parts, of full age, consummated goal, mature from going through the necessary stages to reach the end-goal, developed into a consummating completion by fulfilling the necessary process, reaching the end (aim)…"

I find this a useful way to look at 'perfection' - like an acorn that has now become a mighty oak (My favorite Christian teacher, Dr Bruce Morgan used to say ; )

Of course, I STILL won't get there, until my life completes and I am ready to transition. But, I really like this definition of perfection: to be allowing myself and God to be in the active process of wholeness, maturity and coming to completion as MYSELF in my Unique Being and Spiritual Journey in this world.

And to be clear! I do not mean coming to maturity through Striving, through Effort, though Trying to be bigger, faster, smarter, BETTER!
  • I mean like a child in the sandbox, playing: and while I play: learning and growing and maturing.
  • I mean like the beautiful tree BEING itself every day in every way: enjoying the land it is on, soaking up the rain, delighting in the sunlight, swaying in the breeze... then millimeter by millimeter = after years, or decades, or centuries of being - it comes to its fullness.
  • I mean a maturity that comes with being myself, creating and playing in this physical reality, trusting God. 
I am excited about that kind of perfection!

Our heavenly Father is Whole and Complete. In God, through God, we also can allow God to bring us to Wholeness and Completeness within ourselves. Amen.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Allowing wholeness: letting go of eschewing pain

In my spiritual tradition, we practice letting go of energies that no longer serve us, and this 'housecleaning' in my energy system serves me, A LOT.

AND what I have noticed is: for the 'core issues', the deep wounding:
- eschewing the pain, pictures, experiences, energy...
- wanting to turn away and not grok this dark gift, rather just let it go:
this path Does Not Work.
I notice it doesn't make the pain move out easily in my system, or my students systems, ot the folks who come to me to open to healing, either. In general, I notice for our deepest wounds, something else is often needed.

What seems to work, is being present to the brokenness, betrayal... whatever it is
- being present to what happened
- being present to what I thought and felt and made it all mean
- being present to how 'what happened' affected me then and affected me throughout my life to now;
- seeing the players and the game spiritually
- and holding it all, 'being with' myself then and now, and eventually validating and loving it all.

I don't mean spending a lifetime there, or even necessarily reliving it. I do mean not continuing the lifetime habit of running away from the pain/fear/whatever, hoping to bury it so deeply that it can't hurt me anymore. Because I can never run fast enough, and the price I pay for trying is very high!

So, in my tradition we notice the energy comes 'up and out to clear', if we let it. This process can be intense for a while, and happily that intensity ends and the fruit is amazing afterward:
- we need less distraction, obsessions, addictions...
- we can stop running from that old pain/fear/whatever...
- we can Just Be in our self and in our lives, more.
And as our internal expereince changes, our external expereince usually shifts as well.

This excerpt below inspired me to share, it is a wonderful description, IMO, of someone else's process of what I am referring to as allowing wholeness: letting go of eschewing pain. I hope you are blessed.

As Energy Comes Home

Compacted, frozen pain energy is like a baby. As a mother does not address her fussing baby with nondual language, neither do we in the meeting with ourselves. You may know and understand a lot and be conscious, but these energies are not conscious.

You come into direct relationship with them. Direct but gentle, not piercing, not intrusive, not willpowering anything. Asking contracted energy what it needs is a lovely way of acknowledging its presence and becoming intimate with it. Everything that is not at rest wants to be acknowledged, to be received and bathed in gentleness and benevolence.

It calls for a major slowing down, to receive the old, repressed cries of pain that show up now as contractions, as bodily sensations.

The mind is conditioned to want results - the result in this case being the disappearance of the disturbance. It is very, very sweet to bypass this, allowing the body to have what it has for as long as it does. You may walk around for hours with disturbance but you can be nurturing and aware of your precious cargo. Mercy and opening.

As you become more relaxed with meeting energy in yourself, you find a natural extension of this happening with others. Pain energy in another is no different in any way from energy in your own system. It is all the same separated, totally impersonal energy seeking resolution, looking for Home. So you find yourself, if the situation is fitting, in direct, welcoming relationship with these balls of energy in another, bypassing the personality and issue and mechanisms of mind. A catalyst for the dissolution of pain in others, a totally organic movement of Love.

...your heart is awakening. You come to see that You are Home and all is invited and welcomed Here.

- Mags Deane

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Some Fruit of Life: Beautiful & Brave

The quote below is really one big paragraph:
I formatted it for emphasis and readability;
I think it makes a wonderful poem
; ) Wendy

We must assume our existence
as broadly as we in any way can;
everything, even the unheard-of, must be possible in it.
That is at bottom the only courage that is demanded of us:
to have courage for
the most strange,
the most singular and
the most inexplicable that we may encounter.

That mankind has in this sense been cowardly
has done life endless harm;
the experiences that are called "visions,"
the whole so-called "spirit-world,"
all those things that are so closely akin to us,
have by daily parrying been so crowded out of life
that the senses with which we could have grasped them
are atrophied.
To say nothing of God.

But fear of the inexplicable
has not alone impoverished the existence of the individual;
the relationship between one human being and another
has also been cramped by it,
as though it had been lifted
out of the riverbed of endless possibilities
and set down in a fallow spot on the bank,
to which nothing happens.
For it is not inertia alone
that is responsible for human relationships
repeating themselves from case to case,
indescribably monotonous and unrenewed:
it is shyness
before any sort of new, unforeseeable experience
with which one does not think oneself able to cope.

But only someone who is ready for everything,
who excludes nothing,
not even the most enigmatical,
will live the relation to another as something alive
and will himself draw exhaustively from his own existence.

For if we think of this existence of the individual
as a larger or smaller room,
it appears evident that most people learn to know
only a corner of their room,
a place by the window,
a strip of floor on which they walk up and down.
Thus they have a certain security.

And yet that dangerous insecurity is so much more human
which drives the prisoners in Poe's stories
to feel out the shapes of their horrible dungeons
and not be strangers
to the unspeakable terror of their abode.

We, however, are not prisoners.
No traps or snares are set about us,
and there is nothing which should intimidate or worry us.
We are set down in life
as in the element to which we best correspond,
and over and above this we have
through thousands of years of accommodation
become so like this life,
that when we hold still we are,
through a happy mimicry,
scarcely to be distinguished from all that surrounds us.

We have no reason to mistrust our world,
for it is not against us.
Has it terrors, they are our terrors;
has it abysses, those abuses belong to us;
are dangers at hand, we must try to love them.

And if only we arrange our life
according to that principle which counsels us
that we must always hold to the difficult,
then that which now still seems to us the most alien
will become what we most trust and find most faithful.

How should we be able to forget
those ancient myths about dragons
that at the last moment turn into princesses;
perhaps all the dragons of our lives are princesses
who are only waiting to see us once beautiful and brave.
Perhaps everything terrible is in its deepest being
something helpless that wants help from us.
- Rainer Maria Rilke